2025 Recap
Written On: 06 Jan 2026 - life | year-recap
I’m gonna wrap up the entirety of 2025 here.
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Timeline of sorts
Jan - Feb
Well, this year’s beginning, I honestly don’t remember much in terms of chain of events, but I do specifically remember me having a fun time by just hanging out with friends, playing games on steam. Red dead redemption 2 was a game I loved and enjoyed thoroughly.
Funny enough, rdr2 made me love and enjoy nature even more, cause I started observing HOW detailed our world is and it’s mind blowing. Like I’ve genuinely never seen Earth more beautiful. My friends made soo much fun of me for this lmao.
I also struggled with loads of issues of the mind with the past, I was just enable to digest and stuff.
March - May
March, crucial time cause I started the my cpu. Main motive for this was to bring in credibility to myself for masters. I was planning on taking a drop year for GATE, but now I’m going back to my original plan a bit modified, which is work for 1 year and go out abroad.
I cannot take the pain of GATE, a huge shoutout to those who do though, you need to be next level nerd for that, I lack the brains for this.
So the cpu started, I wrote all parts of it. I used claude and gpt to make me understand how a CPU works, code wise I did everything.
I wrote my assembler and mini-compiler (which is still extremely broken) in python to create a “full-stack” environment of sorts.
June - September
Extreme burnout came into picture, and loads of existential crisis kicked in. We live in a big city and daily water supply was a big hurdle for us. So just thinking about WHY suffering, put me through me loads you know, why be alive questions. I stopped my CPU from June predominantly.
Yet I did join a PCB design company as an intern for 1 month with 2 others from my class in college, it was nice and fun.
That was also when I switched to Obsidian from Notion, and yeah, I love obsidian now hehe. Also the time I started reading TONS of books, I read the iliad, bunch of books from the diary of a wimpy kid series and few spiritual hindu books.
Thanks to my friend online who shared them! All the existential crisis was poured out here in my blogs lmao.
October to December
Well, I still didn’t start working on the cpu, I was trying to get myself out of the burnout. Did multiple things, yet none worked.
I came out of all socials, I stopped having connections with online friends and stopped using almost everything, like:
- discord
- youtube
Yeah even whatsapp, I also deep dived into this rabbit hole of internet privacy by reading privacyguides.org. I took good amount of steps to you know safe guard.
I’ve yet to buy a RPI for pihole in my house.
By beginning of october, that was when I started mixing my EP unrequited love! It sucked soo bad, I was just down right bad at mixing. I have no gear at home, and at the same time I wasn’t ready to buy new things cause like I’m not gonna doing music as a full time career.
So I took a break from that too, I did nothing for like 2 whole months. I would just wake up, exercise and sit and do nothing. No PC usage, no gaming. I hated everything the most. Mind was also going crazy as hell too.
By december I finished by 7th semester exams, and I was like, I’ve gotta mix cause this EP is extremely personal and close to me, which I did. It turned out WONDERFULLY!! Thank god. There are few nitpicks to be fixed, which will take less than a week.
I submitted a PR which got approved by the just delete me team. So that was cool.
Struggles Faced
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Mostly just the mind. This year, my mind was my biggest enemy and I hated my own self for that. Had to keep everything quit and face it on my own, cause of stigma and stuff. It was mostly cause everything was stacked on top of each other.
Half-assed plans, half-assed outputs, nothing just came right, family, relationships with everyone outside of house and you know it’s just . . . meh.
After seeing the 1356 project guy talk on the video I was like I need to do this for my own self. So yeah! That’s there.
Resolutions of sorts
Well, main focus is the mind. I’m MUCH MUCH better than last year, yet I’ve still gotta work on myself.
I’ve slowed down a lot to take in things, I’ve started reading the computer design book by Japanese professor Dr. Yamin Li for my cpu, cause the cpu is soo bad, and I need it to be fixed and finished for my final year project lmao.
I’ll be releasing my EP unrequited love by Feb or March. I’ve got my own health (physical) to take care of. If I just focus on this, I think I’ll be sane mentally.
Calisthenics is something I really want to be good at, cause I cycle a lot and sit at my desk too much too. So body-building isn’t my goal cause that’ll affect my cycling so calisthenics it is hehe.
Consistency is something I lack a lot, so tracking all my moves is really helping. I journal ALOT on obsidian and that is also quite helping in a way of sorts. I created this heatmap for my mood for this year (2026) cause it’s already high-time I change myself.
Hopefully I bag a decent internship cause I’ve been getting rejected left and right for many months lmao. I need this for my masters applications, cause I have 0 good professional experience and NO research papers what so ever. I’m not brainy enough for that so yeah.
There is so much more I wanna do, I have plans for making a cycling game, I wanna read more books, cycle more kilometers, get a good intern, you know be good at everything I want to be good. Not just jack of all trades, but more than a jack and less than a master.
This will take a lot of time and energy.
Thank you to my family for providing the infrastructure and giving me the space and freedom to do things. My friends to hear me out at times and myself for still being here and you know moving on. Also joji, hans zimmer and ludwig gorranson with their songs.
Hope everyone has an amazing new year and yeah!